This was a piece written by “s-hal” – a male submissive who has an uncanny grasp on anal submission. Posted with permission from “s-hal”.
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“Over the years i’ve come to understand that to submit and to be used anally is one of the most humiliating forms of submission. i guess that is why i enjoy it so much. But for me there is more to it than that. i have this extreme desire to offer myself up to a Dominant Lady in order for her to have the chance to fuck a man. my thoughts have been that men have been bragging about and having intercourse with women over time, and not necessarily for their enjoyment. i wish to be used by these ladies as pay back.
i believe this idea came to me from three incidents in my life. The first being from a friend growing up. He was sexually active at an early age and had a way of getting girls. He would brag about all that he did without a concern for the girls he was with. To me, him getting off was all that mattered, and if the girl gained pleasure from it that was fine, but if she didn’t that was all right too. It seemed that he treated these girls with loathing and all he cared about was his pleasure fucking these girls. i actually witness him in action one time. i came across him and a girl in the woods near our neighborhood. He had her on her hands and knees, going at her from behind. He shot off on her back and then told her if she wanted to get off she would have to get him hard again. Later he bragged about the incident. For some reason this treatment of a lovely girl bothered me. i was raised to always treat a lady with respect and not be like my friend.
The second incident was when i learned that i was submissive. Growing up i developed a liking for b movies and books with women being subjugated. Then i bought and read my first S&M book. The things that were done to the women in the book excited me to no end. Then i found the classics “The Pearl”, “A Man with a Maid”, “Oh Wicked Country”, “Emmanuelle”, “The Days at Florville”, and of course “The Story of O”. There were many more and i still have some of them in my collection. Because i so enjoyed all that these ladies when through with a man dominating them, i believed that i was a dom. During a period of my life in college i met this lovely woman that totally expanded my knowledge sexually. She was the first person to shave my genitals and to push a finger up my rosebud. She was the teacher and i was the student. It was the first time that i actually sat down and talked with someone about sex and other aspects of my life. i mentioned to her about how much i enjoyed reading about S&M and that i believed that i was a top. She was the first to point out that i did not behave like a top, but showed more of a submissive nature. She made the suggestion that the next time i read one of my books that i look inside of myself and see to whom i really associate with. That night i followed her advice and it was like a bright light going off and i could truly see myself for the first time. i desired to be those women in the stories. i wanted to submit to all the torture and sexual slavery that i was reading about. That weekend i was tied up for the first time and she used me for her sexual pleasure. Unfortunately she transferred next semester and i never saw her again.
The third and least likely of incidents that forged my desire to submit for anal use was an adult comic book. In the story line there was a male Captain and a female assistant; rocketing through space, and saving worlds. In every situation the assistant would get captured and tied up. The Captain would eventually rescue her and then fuck her as a reward for saving her life. In the last scene it is the Captain that gets captured and the female assistant that comes to the rescue. He thinks that she will just untie him and he will shake her hand for a job well done. She has other plans. With him still tied up she proceeds to pull out a strap-on and to fuck his ass as a reward and for her pleasure.
This is why i desire to be anally used. my submissive side wants to offer myself up to all women so that they may get back at mankind for the way man has treated them. Am i wrong to think this way? i know and understand not all men are like my friend or the Captain in the story, but there are many out there like that. That is why i offer myself so and for those who just desire to experience the taking of a man in the ass. i would welcome all who might have an opinion or thought on this.
Over the years i have had many experiences being anally used and will share a few of them. my most memorable experience happened here in Greensboro. i was serving a Mistress here when a couple near by discovered Mistress by mistake. Soon they were exploring their kinky side. One day Mistress tells me that the couple desired to experience having the submissive lady use a strap-on. Everything was set up with me naked tied to the weight bench, her with the strap-on around her body, and everybody else watching. She started slow opening me up with her fingers, but soon she was getting excited. She watched in amazement as the dildo disappeared into my rosebud as she was pushing it in. She pulled it out several times just to watch it go back in over and over. Then she pushed it all the way in and could not believe how much i took. Next she started to fuck me like the slut that i was. On and on she went and i could hear the excitement in her voice. After a long time i suddenly heard her beg permission of her dominat husband if she could have an orgasm. He refused her, but eventually allowed her pleasure. She was a squirter and as she experienced her orgasm i felt her juices all over my bottom. my biggest regret was that there was not a mirror in front of me so that i could watch her as she orgasmed.
During another time i had offered myself up to a dominant couple. At a friend of their’s house i was instructed to strip naked and to posture on hands and knees in front of the front door. As they came in i was collared and leashed, then lead like a pet into the living room. There i was poked, prodded, pulled, spread, slapped, and inspected. This is another humiliation that i enjoy enduring. Next i was flogged, whipped, and given an over the knee spanking. With all the humiliation, torture and verbal abuse tears started to flow from my eyes which they really enjoyed. Then they did some CBT with her doing most of the work. After kissing their feet to thank them i was given a brief rest. i was woken up with a toe being pushed into my ass. Told to get on my hands and knees i was guided to suck on his cock as she proceed to lube and loosen my rosebud. The next thing i know is she is on my back spreading my ass cheeks open and he is pushing his cock up my ass. As he is doing this i feel her rubbing her venus against my back as they kissed and hugged each other. Again to be used in this way for the pleasure of others is very rewarding for me. Soon i feel him explode into the condom that was used. Then it is put onto the strap-on that she has put on herself. With a little more lube she proceeds to have a go at my rose bud. She seemed to take longer and my anal cavity took a rough workout. When she was done using me she removed the condom and had me lick her husbands cum off of it. We played a little more before i was dismissed.
Other experiences have been with a Mistress who had her OWN equipment attached to anally use on me. The scene was photographed and the story told in Carolina Swinger #112. Also i was taken up the ass during a piercing ceremony that was video taped.
There are many more anal experiences i wish to explore. One is to be apart of a anal gang bang, either with me being the sole slave being used or with other female and male submissives. i also desire to be stretched and eventually fisted. i long to know what it is like to have someones hand up my behind. Another humiliating experience that i would like have done to me is to be used by several female submissives. i dream of a dominate couple giving permission to their alpha submissive to play with their lowly male submissive. Either they are going on a trip and the alpha is put in charge, and allowed to play with the other submissives. Or they are sitting down; being waited on by other slaves, watching as the alpha female slave abuses me for their enjoyment. The alpha slave is in charge of all the other submissives and directs all the action. Many different toys and other objects are used on my ass. i even see small, white balls stuffed inside me so i can act like a chicken and lay some eggs. i see the alpha slave using a strap-on while i orally lick another female slaves venus and rosebud.
Even with all my anal experience i admit i’ve never used anyone anally. i have never known what that is like. i can only see myself doing that under two conditions. One if a person desires me to do it to them and request it. The second is if a dominant wished to use me to punish another slave. Either a slave is lowered onto my penis while i’m tied up and they are forced to take it up the ass, or a slave is forced to fuck their ass back onto me. Again while i’m tied up.
Please note i enjoy anal play for the total pleasure of those that use me. Some times i’ve been allowed to cum and lick it up, but most times i have not been allowed an orgasm. The true pleasure is feeling someone else have an orgasm while using your rosebud. Also i enjoy being forced to dress in women’s cloths. Being a cross dresser is not my thing, but to be forcibly dressed in women’s cloths is a form of humiliation that i do enjoy. In anal play i enjoy it both ways. Either to be used anally dressed in lingerie, maids outfit and as a slut, or to be used in the buff, bare naked.
Again i enjoy giving control to a Female Dominant to use me anally; not only, for her pleasure and enjoyment, but to get back at mankind in general. i humbly beg of You to use me for whatever You so desire. Again i welcome everyone’s thoughts and opinions.”
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